Random Observations

This is what happens when you let a wannabe artist watch YouTube videos on different painting techniques. I have always had a secret desire to start drawing and painting again. I thought I lost my talent from not using it for so long. (a few decades or so).  Fortunately I had a girlfriend to show me I had not lost my talent. I was shocked at what she was able to bring out of me with just one lesson. I took to it like a duck takes to water. I felt so alive and inspired. The painting above is my latest and seventh. It's a combination of three painting styles I saw on You Tube The ballerina in the painting is symbolic of how I feel inside when I am alone and at peace. It's also a representation of how I feel when I am creating beautiful paintings. This style of painting challenges me to alter my perceptions of the world. If you notice the cedar tree in the lower left corner, you can see it needs help. I'm confused about how to paint a cedar tree in black and whit

I was at the Lowe's Plaza today (March 6, 2015). As I started to pull out of my parking spot I witnessed a very elderly lady fall on the sidewalk outside of the Dollar Tree. I was already at the stop sign not far from where I saw this poor woman fall so I put the car in park and took off running to help her. She told me that she tripped on a shopping cart and pointed to three carts sitting on the walkway next to the building and the one that caused her fall had no front wheels on it. Next thing I know some selfish jerk pulled up behind my empty car and honked his horn for me to get out of his way. He must have been someone really important because he couldn't be bothered to get off his fat ass and come help me. Instead, he just looked right at us and drove off in a huff without an ounce of compassion or empathy. This was an accident that did not have to happen but it did because of some thoughtless, lazy jerk who couldn't be bothered to walk the carts six feet back into

Spring dawns in the country in upstate NY. The frogs are swimming in the pond and hanging out in the grassy shores. Bugs skim the top of the water, playing in the sun without a care. With the dawn of June 2017 thousands of happy tadpoles swim near the edge of the water. Some venture out into the deeper waters but all is serene and happy. Mid June the bullfrogs invade the pond and the little frogs start to disappear. Some hide, some got eaten. July replaces June and there are 10 goldfish and 10 minnows introduced into the pond. Day after day I watch the fish grow big from eating the mosquito larvae in the pond. The birds and the bullfrogs have eaten all ten minnows and one gold fish. The remaining eight gold fish swim in a school. The site of fish eggs on a stick in the water, makes me wonder if the schooling is to protect each other or as part of their mating ritual. As I walk the perimeter of the pond I notice a large dark shadow moving in the water.

Looking back I'm amazed this marriage has lasted as long as it has. I guess if he'd married someone as selfish as he is, he would have been divorced a lot sooner than 12 years.  All I know is that after shouldering 100% of the responsibility for this marriage over the past 12 years I am finally at my wits end and ready to throw in the towel. I don't like that I will have to break my promise of "Til death do we part" but that man raped me last Sun day and had nothing to say for his actions. He acted like I was wrong for being angry at him for forcing himself on me after I told him no sex four times in 30 mins. I have never been so livid in my life. At first I was suicidal because it seems like this is all I ever get and it never changes. Then I thought, "Why the hell should I give up my life for that asshole?" He's done enough damage so now it's my turn to turn the tables on him and make that fucker pay large for what he's done to me these pa

For you morons out there that think you're fooling the world with your childish mind games. Two things: 1.) You're half right. You are a fool. 2.) Anyone with a brain can see right through your pathetic behavior. As for the current Silly bitch that has been darkening my doorstep: I've been listening to your lies and watching you play your silly little mind games on me without reacting despite how annoying it was for me. Against my better judgment, I gave you the benefit of the doubt. All that did was encourage more betrayal and lies from you. I gave you 7 of my customers to help you  get started. You chased every last one of them away with your slacking off and lord only knows what else you got busted for. What did you think was going to happen? Were you hoping to hide behind my name so you could make me look bad and destroy everything I had worked so hard for?  What is so pathetic about your life that you think it's okay to betray the one person who gave y