The Confused Painter



This is what happens when you let a wannabe artist watch YouTube videos on different painting techniques. I have always had a secret desire to start drawing and painting again. I thought I lost my talent from not using it for so long. (a few decades or so). 
Fortunately I had a girlfriend to show me I had not lost my talent. I was shocked at what she was able to bring out of me with just one lesson. I took to it like a duck takes to water. I felt so alive and inspired. The painting above is my latest and seventh. It's a combination of three painting styles I saw on You Tube

The ballerina in the painting is symbolic of how I feel inside when I am alone and at peace. It's also a representation of how I feel when I am creating beautiful paintings.

This style of painting challenges me to alter my perceptions of the world. If you notice the cedar tree in the lower left corner, you can see it needs help. I'm confused about how to paint a cedar tree in black and white. In color, I paint a mean cedar tree because I paint what I see and my logical side is in play. Black and white is different because it challenges me to see the tree without the light and dark shades of color. just shadows and lights. Now here's where it gets challenging. I can't see all shadows. the subtle ones have always been invisible to me. This is where my logic helps me get it right. I have to be told where to put the subtle shade and how to make them. I've since learned that wearing dark sunglasses allows me to see subtle shades, so there's hope for me yet. Now I just have to figure out how to paint a cedar tree in black and white. The video I learned from didn't go there. I'm trying to figure it out myself. I'm going outside the boundaries set by my teachings.

I am so in my element.

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